“You fill my brain.” That’s what Lady Mary’s unlikely suitor Lord Anthony Gillingham told her in last week’s episode of Downton Abbey. What a dynamic description of a love that is pulsatingly alive and vigorously “present.”
You may not think this fits your situation at present. But actually, whether you are in a relationship or not, there is a love story hanging in the balance within each one of us. A love story with God. Pondering this over the past few days, Jesus’ rebuke to the church in Ephesus came to mind: “But I have this against you, that you have left your first love.” (Rev. 2:4) Which begs the question, am I in love with God?
Our love for God should manifest itself first and foremost in worship…that time, private or corporate, when we sit or stand or kneel (or lay prostrate) before God and tell Him what we think and how we feel, and dare to listen for His reply. Up until now my favorite description of worship has been “giving God all of my attention.” While that is a good description – being fully present before God – it doesn’t really capture the emotion of “You fill my brain.” Or better yet, the idea that I fill God’s brain!
The more I thought about this, the more I began to understand the full impact of Jesus’ words when speaking to the church at Ephesus. How crushed Jesus must have been to realize that the people He loved so deeply felt only mediocre toward Him!
In his book “Behold the Lamb of God—An Advent Narrative,” pastor and author Russ Ramsey wrote about the period of the judges before Saul became Israel’s first king, when the people readily followed after the gods of the land:
“When the people turned away to worship other gods, they trained their hearts to no longer hope or pray or trust or delight in being known by the God who held their fate. The God of Abraham was living and glorious, and his worshipers were being conformed to His image. Baal and Ashtoreth, on the other hand, were lifeless stone. Still, their followers also slowly took on their likenesses—beginning with a coldness in their hearts that worked its way out toward their communities. This was the fruit of worship—that worshipers came to resemble the object of their adoration.”
How true. The highest honor we can give to God is to become so like Him (through worship) that we become a true reflection of Him to the communities around us.
Am I an authentic reflection of Christ? Are you? This question can act as a barometer of our “love life” with God…a life that starts when we begin our worship with the recognition that We fill God’s brain.